16th week of Mind Training.

I guess everyone will be comfortable only if I pretend not to know anything and just cover up. 

Just like I did 7 years ago. 

Then, children will not be nervous and anxious and my wife will not feel sorry and guilty. 

After all, I have no confidence to raise children all by myself and no courage to leave my wife. 

I want to resume Mind Training. 

I was neglecting it for a couple of months. 

I guess I just watched the training videos and did therapeutic tasks without thinking much. 

I plan to focus this time like. 

I want to have hope at least.  

Right now, I can't see any future in my mind. 

Only this institute tries to let me understand the fundamental mechanism, which I still can't understand, and tells me to treat my condition. 

I understand that I cannot go back to the past days when everything was normal. 

1<-- All family members become unhappy. 

2<-- Treat my condition and live with children and without my wife restoring normalcy

3<-- All family members become happy after treating my condition. 

Right I am inclined to number 2. I have lost trust for my wife. 

However, I want to achieve complete cure and choose number 3. 

I understand that I was not good enough to protect my wife and she is the mother of my children. 

I cannot see the future yet, but I want to restore happiness for myself and my family. 

I hope I will succeed in my treatment and be rewarded with happiness of my family.

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