My husband looked extremely nervous shivering all through the ceremony. 

He wanted to sleep during the whole time of honeymoon and I was so disappointed and worried. 

We had a difficult marriage from the start. I didn't know the reason so I asked people for advice. I tried to work it out but became frustrated soon. 

I was hurt and he was hurt. He seemed to have difficult time in his own way. He seemed to try hard but then give up. 

We became tired of the whole situation.  

I thought about getting a divorce being convinced that he didn't like me. 

However, it occurred to me that something beyond his control was giving him a hard time. 

I tried to help with whatever he was going through, but things got worse and worse. We were blaming each other and felt hurt more and more. 

Many absurd things happened. Efforts didn't make any difference and I felt my life was wrong at the fundamental level.

No advice helped and there seemed to be no answer what so ever. 

One day, I accidentally watched a Youtube video by Mr. Kim. I had thought my husband had depression and anxiety, 

but this time I hesitantly asked him if he had issues that were mentioned in the video. 

My husband's eyes got wide open and literally glittered popping up from the bed. 

I liked it so much when I brought up the issue and willingly talked about his problems. Then, we went on Therapy Tour right away.  

Then, we had difficult time some more time during and after Therapy Tour. 

We thought we could just fix the problem quickly at first. We were so excited and looked forward to the result. 

However, he repeated feeling good and bad repeatedly and deeply frustrated sometimes. I despaired, too. We almost gave up. 

Then, one day I watched another video by Mr. Kim. He talked about infidelity but the symptoms were so much like my husband's. 

I was so surprised. How could he know abut such a thing. It was exactly what happened between us in complete privacy. 

Then, I began to participate in the seminar. 

I couldn't understand well. Why would I have to do such tasks? I guess I just pretended to do the tasks thinking it was not important.  

The reply from Mr. Kim was always the same. "Please, don't pay attention to your husband and keep focusing on your treatment." 

I was recommended to not think and not read the books I was given. I simply did what I was instructed to do. 

I felt comfortable since I didn't have to pay attention to my husband. Then, I was worried when my husband didn't do his tasks or felt depressed. 

It was a long journey. I understood one day and didn't the next day and I kept feeling pain often times. 

I gradually focused on the tasks more and more growing trust in the program and I made efforts more and more. 

I check for the items i have to finish every day with the list I made.  

It has been 2 years and 4 months since I started the treatment. I can smile at my changed self and I know that my own happiness comes before anything. 

I am the only one who can generate my own emotions. I don't blame anyone including myself since I can make myself happy. 

I don't get swayed by other people in relationships.  

We are both taking the treatment program. My husband is having a break since it is quite r=hard for him but I am making efforts to protect my happiness. 

We has a walk together today. He kept talking and talking to me. He said that he was able to protect our marriage thanks to Mr. Kim. 

He said he liked seeing me looking comfortable and smiling a lot. He thanked me, too. 

He said he still had a long way to go but he is sure that his future will be better. 

I am grateful that we don't blame each other anymore. He is afraid of resuming his tasks because he knows that he will be stressed. 

He doesn't even want to look at the textbook. 

It is too bad that couples get a divorce. I had so many things to write in this review and I didn't know how to start.  

I have experienced much greater change than expressed in this review.  

I was able to look back at all my past life and began to see the world with new eyes. 

I came to know about myself and other people.  

I still have fear for relationships and conflicts, but I know that I can protect myself. 

I am sure that 200 hundred standards in my unconscious will empower me and guide me in the right direction.

I also had repulsion and asked 'why me?' at first, but taking the treatment was one of the best things I did in my life and I am grateful for everything. 

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