I am writing this review to make sure that I keep my initial intention.
Before taking KIP treatment :
Self-blame, blaming others, frustration, regret, rage, argument.
I couldn't think anything. You was enraged and couldn't hold it. I was stressed and let it out to my wife and children.
I constantly paid attention to my wife and focused on solving practical problems. I was anxious all the time.
My health deteriorated due to stress and suppression.
I didn't know that what I had was panic disorder. I didn't even know that I had psychological problems.
I only blamed my wife.
I took couple counseling and individual counseling, which felt right temporarily but generally aggravated my condition.
The counselor seemed to be a judge rather than a helper.
Taking KIP treatment :
I learned after 7 to 8 sessions that psychology counseling didn't help. I just made me feel more emptier.
I accidentally watched Youtube videos of KIP.
I just started the treatment thinking that it might help at least a little.
I thought I had to do something to get my normal condition back.
1 year into the treatment :
I had a difficult time because I couldn't focus on the treatment as much as I wanted.
My old self interfered with doing tasks.
I went through ups and downs emotionally. I learned about the Theory of Mimind little by little.
I underlined in the textbook.
I suggested my wife that we go on Therapy Tour and we went together.
Of course, we had arguments even during Therapy Tour.
I repeated the course in the second year. I tried to internalize the contents by writing on the board or speaking to myself.
It became quite interesting and I gradually understood better.
I felt comfortable and saw my family and other people.
It was like a blind man being able to see. My rage subsided and my emotions fluctuated less. I was able to smile.
It was something I hadn't even imagine before taking the treatment.
I was still a mess, but I was determined to recover. I was desperate.
It is a shame that off-line seminars had to be stopped due to the pandemic situation.
2 years into the treatment :
Why have my will power and determination disappeared? Where is my initial intention?
Where is the determination that aimed for complete cure?
I am getting lazy. The clock is ticking.
I know that I have to treat my psychological disorder and go back to my wife. I can't live like this die a caterpillar.
I should become a butterfly and share happiness with my loved ones.
I can do it. Let's not lose my initial intention. It is not supposed to be easy.
I should get up and walk.
I will not live with regret. I have already regretted so much.
I will never give up, never. I will go back to myself and protect my family.
I hope that I will be in stage 3 when I write the next review.
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Posted by Korea Institute of Psycho-Education
Date 2023-06-08
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The more you make efforts in the wrong direction, the more damaged you and your family are.
You started the treatment with firm initial intention.
You were desperate at first, but you feel comfortable and your psychology is stabilized as time passes taking the treatment.
You experience the relapse of symptoms but they are not as severe as before.
Then, you may want to stay in comfort and may not keep going.
It is important to keep your initial intention and continue to focus on your tasks.
You must also do self-check on progress.
You seem to understand the treatment process well.
Please, read your own review when you want to gather your will power again.