I am writing this review to make sure that I keep my initial intention. 

Before taking KIP treatment : 

Self-blame, blaming others, frustration, regret, rage, argument. 

I couldn't think anything. You was enraged and couldn't hold it. I was stressed and let it out to my wife and children.  

I constantly paid attention to my wife and focused on solving practical problems. I was anxious all the time. 

My health deteriorated due to stress and suppression. 

I didn't know that what I had was panic disorder. I didn't even know that I had psychological problems. 

I only blamed my wife. 

I took couple counseling and individual counseling, which felt right temporarily but generally aggravated my condition.

The counselor seemed to be a judge rather than a helper. 

Taking KIP treatment : 

I learned after 7 to 8 sessions that psychology counseling didn't help. I just made me feel more emptier. 

I accidentally watched Youtube videos of KIP. 

I just started the treatment thinking that it might help at least a little. 

I thought I had to do something to get my normal condition back. 

1 year into the treatment : 

I had a difficult time because I couldn't focus on the treatment as much as I wanted. 

My old self interfered with doing tasks. 

I went through ups and downs emotionally. I learned about the Theory of Mimind little by little. 

I underlined in the textbook. 

I suggested my wife that we go on Therapy Tour and we went together. 

Of course, we had arguments even during Therapy Tour.  

I repeated the course in the second year. I tried to internalize the contents by writing on the board or speaking to myself. 

It became quite interesting and I gradually understood better. 

I felt comfortable and saw my family and other people. 

It was like a blind man being able to see. My rage subsided and my emotions fluctuated less. I was able to smile. 

It was something I hadn't even imagine before taking the treatment. 

I was still a mess, but I was determined to recover. I was desperate. 

It is a shame that off-line seminars had to be stopped due to the pandemic situation. 

2 years into the treatment : 

Why have my will power and determination disappeared? Where is my initial intention?

Where is the determination that aimed for complete cure? 

I am getting lazy. The clock is ticking. 

I know that I have to treat my psychological disorder and go back to my wife. I can't live like this die a caterpillar.  

I should become a butterfly and share happiness with my loved ones. 

I can do it. Let's not lose my initial intention. It is not supposed to be easy. 

I should get up and walk.   

I will not live with regret. I have already regretted so much.  

I will never give up, never. I will go back to myself and protect my family.  

I hope that I will be in stage 3 when I write the next review. 

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