It has been 5 years since I started the treatment. 

I was furious and I was full of the idea of just killing him. 

I always wore a dark face and just spent everyday not knowing why I had to live. 

Then, I began to change after I started the treatment.  

I tried to find a clue to why I had to live and began to think about happiness even in great pain. 

I still experience pain once in a while, but the past was a much more difficult time for me. 

I know I am progressing too slow, but I hope I will achieve complete cure someday. 

Now, I can feel what happiness is at least. 

I want to praise myself for choosing the right path. 

I must restore my health above anything. 

I will keep making efforts. 

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