I cannot take the path of happiness if my will for wounds is bigger than my will for treatment. 

When I first started the treatment, I was following a dim light in the dark tunnel. 

Now, in the 46th week of treatment, I am trying to become the light instead of following it. 

The most important thing in this process is my will power for treating wounds.  

I should discard my old self to change myself. 

I can wear new clothes only when I take off old clothes. 

I will keep making efforts until I can fit into my new clothes. 

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