It was already the third time that I found out about my husband's affair. 

The first and the second hurt me but not to the limit.  

The third time hit me really hard. It was like being hit hard on my head by a hammer from behind. 

All the wounds that had accumulated exploded and I could hardly manage daily life. 

I lost 7 kg in 3 months and I always had a stomach upset. 

( I learned why the third time hit me so hard after I took the treatment program) 

I was worried that I would go literally insane.  

I had done everything I was not supposed to do before taking the treatment thinking that they were the best things to do.  

I was living abroad and didn't have people who cared about me around. 

I took counseling many times, which gave me temporary relief. I kept taking counseling and talked and cried during every session.  

I also took coaching that directed my behaviors specifically. 

I was directed to behave in ways that satisfied my husband. I thought it was weird and not right so I quit.  

I sought from my in-laws, but they were cold to me, which only deepened my wounds.  

I eventually had hypnosis treatment for erasing wounds and also did fortune telling.  

I was struggling to stay alive.  

I had to hold myself tight not to show my condition at work and I was constantly reading my husband's face for fear of losing him.   

I watched Mr. Kim's Youtube videos but I didn't think much of them at first.  

I was in a hurry and looking for some quick fix rather than long and theoretical explanations.  

One day in May when  my emotions were going beyond the limit of sanity, I cried so much. 

Then, I watched Mr. Kim's videos again  and thought that was it. I sent an e-mail to him right away. 

I got a reply mail and hesitated for a short time. 

I started to take the treatment since I was simply not able to live that way. 

I decided to think about only myself and my children.  

I feel weak since i have such a long way to go to reach happiness.  

I do my best to do therapeutic tasks, but I am still swayed by my husband's behaviors and it is not easy. 

One day, I feel better, and the next day, I feel nervous and anxious all day.   

However, I am getting better in general.  

I will go step by step until i reach complete cure.  

I will not be swayed by my husband and treat all my wounds. 

I will have happiness ability and will not really care whether he has an affair or not. 

I will be happy married or divorced.  

I will have myself at the center of my life and stand firm alone. 

I may give him an opportunity to treat himself. 

I will live happily with my children with or without a husband. 

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