I am trying very hard not to lose my initial intention.  

I used to feel my psychology was being stabilized as I did therapeutic tasks. These days, I don't feel much change or effect since I am stable and comfortable most of the time. I don't focus on doing the tasks as much as before. I try to focus on the tasks consciously. 

I still get goosebumps to think about the time when post traumatic stress controlled me. 

I was a monster in the shape of a human being. 

I promise myself that I will reach complete cure and build happiness ability. 

I cried a lot during the treatment process. 

I cried sad cries and cried happy cries. 

I cried thanking myself for choose the right path for my life. 

I don't cry any more. 

I feel thankful everyday. 

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