Something I had never imagined happened to my life. 

I was full of blaming others and self. I developed dependency. 

I tried to solve the problem in practical ways. 

I realized that I was getting crazy. 

I couldn't live or die. 

I chose to take KIP Treatment. 

My husband left home 3 years ago say he was busy with his business. 

We  became distant from each other. 

He demanded a divorce 1 year ago. 

I felt that something was going on but I had no courage to confront. 

I avoided and I became weak. 

I tried to deny the fact for 1 year and everything appeared in front of me eventually.  

I was pathetic. I didn't even display rage or anger. I was just afraid of everything.  

KIP Treatment has taught me that I learned that being visually impaired is inconvenient but it cannot be the reason for giving up my life. 

I guess I was a useless person for my children who were already adults and my husband who was always busy. 

I guess I treated myself badly thinking that I was nothing. 

Now, I know that being a mother is so important. I know that I have the right to be happy like anyone else. 

I have chosen this path to become a happy person in a true sense. I see no other choice. 

Treating myself and restoring my own happiness is the only way. 

That way, I can save myself, and I can save my children, who have grown see a sick mother all these years. 

Maybe I can save my husband by the chance of 50 %.

I am crying but I am smiling at the same time looking into the mirror.   

I plan to go all the way. 

I plan to go all the way without being swayed by my husband's speech and actions, without being hurt, without being afraid. 

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