I didn't know that I had developed post traumatic stress. 

I tried to solve the problem on my own and just wasted time. 

I accidentally registered the on-line community of KIP and watched videos. 

(I was wasting time.)

I started the treatment and I am focusing on my treatment. 

I used to cry and suffered from pain everyday. 

I barely managed daily life. 

I was out of my mind and got enraged and violent. 

I am crying now thinking about those sad days. 

Today's tear is not the tear of rage and regret but the tear of gratitude and praise. 

I sometimes feel depressed and skip tasks to feel comfortable but I try again to do the tasks. 

I know that only I can change myself from inside and I am focusing on my therapeutic tasks. 

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