Reflecting on my treatment process,

it didn't take long to transform fake wounds into good memories. 

I restored the memories of past days as they were.

It wasn't that difficult to not be hurt by my spouse's expression.

Maybe I tried to minimize the meaning and impact of infidelity without knowing what destructive power it had. 

I was deeply hurt when I realized that my spouse had a more serious condition than I had thought 

as we shared more time together and talked to each other more. 

It was also hurtful that my spouse's condition had a very negative and adverse impact on all my family. 

It was also hard to bear the fact that the infidelity situation was worse than I had thought at first. 

I found it later when I thought I had achieved composure. 

I felt that I worked so hard to get out of the bog, but I was being dragged again back into the bog.

I repeated it a few time.  

All those processes were meaningful. 

They let me learn how to understand and process things I could not. 

Finally, I have come out of the bog and I am looking at the bog from outside.  

I just smile thinking about the time I was so serious about such things. 

I can look at the past as it was.  

I feel good that I don't feel pain and wounds but strangely, I don't feel much toward my spouse. 

He sometimes looks like a stranger and it feels awkward. 

For now, I am just doing my best in the current situation. 

I hope I will be able to live happily with my family and work for my dream. 

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