I couldn't understand at all at first when I listened to the voice files of Mind Training.

I didn't feel good about it. 

I finished listening to it once, and I thought I didn't have to listen again. 

I stopped doing the therapeutic tasks for quite a long time. 

I didn't even think that I stopped because I just stopped doing self-check on progress. 

I resumed self-check on progress and I am listening to the recording again. 

I try not to focus on the content consciously, but this time, I don't feel bad about the contents. 

I sometimes understand the contents and realize that I didn't know this and that. 

I still can't understand a lot of the contents. 

Accurate understanding and treatment of self is supposed to be very important. 

I don't really understand what it means by accurate understanding. 

I guess I am afraid that I will despair when I face my own negative responses. 

I guess I am afraid that I won't be able to deal with situations and my own emotions when I get hurt and wounded again. 

Mind Training and doing therapeutic tasks can be boring too.  

I don't focus on some of the tasks enough. 

Still, I will keep making efforts. 

I can stand firm because I took KIP Treatment as if I clutched at straws. 

I have come this far and I have a little more to go. 

I want to open up a good path of life for myself and my children. 

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