I used to walk or run whenever I felt stuffy in my chest after experiencing my husband's infidelity and thinking about divorce, death, and children. 

My husband and I became close to each other as time passed and I enjoyed daily life. I thought I was doing a good job. My dream was to get 

a divorce smiling and die smiling. Everything seemed happy and peaceful.  

Still, I was often depressed and felt stuffy. I thought about dying a lot. I didn't have anything to live for except for my children and such an idea 

damaged my children. I would be disappointed so much at so little things about my children since I was pouring all I has into my children. 

I realized that I had problems when I found out about my husband's infidelity for the second time.  

I learned about what I was going through and why my husband was that way through this treatment program. I was so sorry to my children, 

who suffered because of me. I kneeled on my knees and apologized to my daughter crying badly the moment I learned that I was destroying my children.  

It has been one and a half year since I started taking the treatment. I go shopping with my daughter and talk and laugh together. I smile 

more than before without specific reasons. I used to ask myself if i was happy and my answer was usually 'Yes'. 

Now, in the middle of the treatment, I am not sure. I often forget about doing exercise. I used to like exercising and i was good at it. 

I still feel stuffy about once a week but i don't feel hurt. I wonder how far I have come  for complete cure.  

I send best regards to the staff at KIP and hope all the members complete the program although it is a long way to go by themselves. 

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