I have gone through a long tunnel for more than one month without doing self-check on progress. 

One day I understood the true nature and the mechanism of infidelity, which made me feel pity on my husband. 

I began to see the man I used to know in him. 

What would have happen to him?

I was angry and sorry for him thinking that the man who used to work so hard for his career suddenly fell for a fatal disease. 

I can interpret naturally a lot of things that happen around me. 

I now understand why I have to understand the operational mechanism of human mind and psychology. 

My rage and wounds disappeared the moment I understood the mechanism. 

It was the subtle difference of one blank sheet. 

I now understand what it means to treat your condition on your own. 

I came out of the long tunnel and came back to myself putting the time of rage and wounds behind. 

It is exactly 7 months after experiencing post traumatic stress. 

I feel and undefinable sense of joy.  

I feel stable and happy for no reason. 

I still have the issue of restoring the relationship. 

It will take time but no problem. 

 

I don't think much about wounds and I feel calm. 

I can talk with my partner without being enraged. I can even smile.   

He seems to be stressed but we are trying to exchange feelings and thoughts.

We can have conversations without arguing. 

We understand each other better. 

I feel irritated sometimes but I can recover soon. 

I feel that my rage and wounds are being treated. 

I am continuing with therapeutic tasks. 

My habits are changing for the better. 

I repeat feeling happy and feeling pain but I know that I am happy since I can spend my daily life smiling with my family.  

It is the daily life I had been longing for.

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