Everything was going well and I was really happy. I was living in the delusion that it was happiness. 

My husband was so sweet and sincere to me. I had beautiful children. 

I had a good career and had a food family. 

I was cool enough to give my husband as much freedom as he wanted. 

Then, it came to my life too, like a lightening in a sunny day. 

Infidelity was not hard to see around but it was so new in my own life. 

He didn't even deny his affair and betrayed 17 years of our relationship. 

I simply wanted to tear him a part into pieces. 

I wanted to smash away my marriage I had worked so hard to build at one blow. 

I was so enraged that I almost fainted. 

I watched his whereabouts and argued constantly for months. 

He begged me for forgiveness, but he was caught continuing the affair. 

I felt I had nothing left.  

How come my life was such a failure?

My anxiety and panic disorder grew and grew. Nothing was getting better. 

I could not see my children. 

I sustained day by day harassing my husband. 

I wonder how he endured my rage.  

Then, I accidentally watched Mr. Kim's videos. It was like seeing a miracle right in front of my eyes. 

I didn't believe in his lectures at first. I just watched them for two months. 

Then, I decided to take the treatment like I was catching at a straw, and made an international call trembling like a scared cat. 

I couldn't postpone anymore because I was desperate and suffocated. 

I had a feeling that somehow this program could save my life. 

I participated in Therapy Tour in Jeju Island. I was still asking myself why I was there.  

The 6 days I spent in Jeju Island was one of the most happy days in my life. 

I learned a lot about the theory and built many good memories.

I came home and I have been working on the tasks  from then on. 

93 weeks and 3 days now. 

Life has been tough and hard, but Therapeutic tasks and Mind Training help me breathe. 

I repeat going and resting and have been progressing step by step. 

My legs felt really heavy but I could move on little by little understanding human mind and psychology. 

My mind that used to keep telling to to revenge began to tell me to become happy. 

I am moved by my children who endured in such a turmoil and I can see they are smiling more these days. 

I am moved by myself who is more composed and satisfied. I have changed. 

I am rarely swayed by the external condition and I don't pay attention to my husband or other people. 

I will be a good mother and protect my children. 

I will become someone who has a good influence on people around me. 

I also want to have happiness as a woman. 

I feel that happiness is approaching me little by little. 

I will be a better person in the future. 

I will keep doing the tasks consciously to reach my goal.  

I want to thank everyone who gave me an opportunity to treat my condition and helped me overcome my difficulties in the process. 

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